"Blood Brother"
Today at church instead of a traditional service a documentary was played.
We watched "Blood Brother" and it honestly made me an emotional mess for the next few hours.
Parts of the documentary were really hard to watch, I'd have to clench my jaw just to keep from really really crying...
BUT
The movie was definitely worth watching. I'd recommend anyone to watch it no matter what religious affiliation etc.
The movie was less about the spiritual side of mission work and more about the humanitarian side and Rocky (the documentaries focus). Rocky's desire to really place himself in the heart of suffering was admirable and his commitment to stay in India permanently and work with women & children in an HIV orphanage is definitely rare.
I think the hardest part of the documentary was having it end, and realizing how quickly our life picks up and keeps going. I got in my car, drove to get lunch, and then returned to my apartment (with running water and air-conditioning/heat). I felt this overwhelming desire to do something right that minute. After a rough few hours and a conversation with my mom - she reminded me that I don't have to pick up and move to India to make a difference. I can try a short term trip and see how that works out.
My emotional reaction to the story made me doubt my ability to do Social Work (my career path for now). Our talk unexpectedly gave me a spark of hope in that realm as well. After talking with my mom I ended up answering some of my own questions. She was worried that I'd want to save everyone and fix everything and my answer was simple "I just want to feel like I'm doing something. I'd feel productive and I know I can't sweep in like a fairytale but I'd be able to do something. And I'd be trained to help in those situations instead of feeling helpless from the outside."
If I went into a different field, for example accounting (something you wouldn't typically associate with the emotions of charity work etc) I'd still be passionate and heartbroken about the same issues in years to come - I just wouldn't feel like I was doing anything about it. So I'm hoping that my career path for now will give me a bit of an outlet for whatever that desire may be.
SO
I'd recommend watching and I'd also recommend prepping for a bit of a breakdown.
or at least the movie causing you to ask yourself some really hard questions.
I think we all want to feel like we're connecting and making a difference. Whether that's a daily difference or our entire existence being dedicated to others - I think it's at the root of my days when I feel agitated and restless...I'll start thinking about how I'm almost 23 and this is the time, these moments right now.... Instead, I need to be more patient and realize I will make a difference, and I should give myself some credit for small difference I may be making for others. You don't have to pick up and move to an impoverished area (though I'd totally support you and think you're awesome if you do) but I think we need to do something. Whether that's mission trips, volunteering, or just patiently and continuously showing love to others - we can all try.
If you're interested - check out the documentary trailer here.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=um4BAZ8-ndw
be love.
We watched "Blood Brother" and it honestly made me an emotional mess for the next few hours.
Parts of the documentary were really hard to watch, I'd have to clench my jaw just to keep from really really crying...
BUT
The movie was definitely worth watching. I'd recommend anyone to watch it no matter what religious affiliation etc.
The movie was less about the spiritual side of mission work and more about the humanitarian side and Rocky (the documentaries focus). Rocky's desire to really place himself in the heart of suffering was admirable and his commitment to stay in India permanently and work with women & children in an HIV orphanage is definitely rare.
I think the hardest part of the documentary was having it end, and realizing how quickly our life picks up and keeps going. I got in my car, drove to get lunch, and then returned to my apartment (with running water and air-conditioning/heat). I felt this overwhelming desire to do something right that minute. After a rough few hours and a conversation with my mom - she reminded me that I don't have to pick up and move to India to make a difference. I can try a short term trip and see how that works out.
My emotional reaction to the story made me doubt my ability to do Social Work (my career path for now). Our talk unexpectedly gave me a spark of hope in that realm as well. After talking with my mom I ended up answering some of my own questions. She was worried that I'd want to save everyone and fix everything and my answer was simple "I just want to feel like I'm doing something. I'd feel productive and I know I can't sweep in like a fairytale but I'd be able to do something. And I'd be trained to help in those situations instead of feeling helpless from the outside."
If I went into a different field, for example accounting (something you wouldn't typically associate with the emotions of charity work etc) I'd still be passionate and heartbroken about the same issues in years to come - I just wouldn't feel like I was doing anything about it. So I'm hoping that my career path for now will give me a bit of an outlet for whatever that desire may be.
SO
I'd recommend watching and I'd also recommend prepping for a bit of a breakdown.
or at least the movie causing you to ask yourself some really hard questions.
I think we all want to feel like we're connecting and making a difference. Whether that's a daily difference or our entire existence being dedicated to others - I think it's at the root of my days when I feel agitated and restless...I'll start thinking about how I'm almost 23 and this is the time, these moments right now.... Instead, I need to be more patient and realize I will make a difference, and I should give myself some credit for small difference I may be making for others. You don't have to pick up and move to an impoverished area (though I'd totally support you and think you're awesome if you do) but I think we need to do something. Whether that's mission trips, volunteering, or just patiently and continuously showing love to others - we can all try.
If you're interested - check out the documentary trailer here.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=um4BAZ8-ndw
be love.
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