Friends/Sisters
I was just thinking recently that I hadn't blogged in far far far too long.
And was also reminded of it today by a friend. I joked that I hadn't been inspired to write one, but really I think it is that I was too busy with other things OR I was just plain lazy.
I guess I've kind of forgotten that this blog is an outlet for things and I know I have plenty to share.
Just yesterday I was so moved by my friends/sisters coming out to support me. I joined "The Walk to End Alzheimer's" with my internship site, but also have a really close connection to the cause.
My grandfather was diagnosed with the disease at the age of 65 and died years ago after suffering with the disease for a decade. His wife, and my grandmother Bobo, also had signs of dementia and possible Alzheimer's. She died a week before school started this year. I didn't feel like sharing that news with everyone because I wasn't sure I could handle really talking about it. It's come up a few times and I've literally said "I can't go there" because I didn't want to get super upset.
But then my grandmothers heart shaped ring came in on Friday, resized and waiting for me. At first the excitement of having it was enough to distract me from the reminder of her being gone. A ring alone would have been a constant reminder but then with the added (personal) significance of the heart, and a band my mom gave me, I pretty much couldn't hold back the tears any longer. I cried on and off on the drive home and for the next bit listening to some songs that reminded me of her. I felt like I just needed to cry and shouldn't hold it in (I'm not a huge crier ) I stopped when my roommate Alex hugged me and squeezed me tight [something special in itself if it's coming from her ;) ]
This past weekend during the walk too, I found my eyes watering a couple times. Just thinking of my grandparents, the aging process, and the loss of loved ones.
I'm so blessed though that throughout this weekend of emotions and reflection I've had friends there for me throughout. Some have been there for years and years & some surprised me and that added even more to their comfort. Even the encouragement to continue blogging is something I appreciate.
So basically this is me bragging about my friends and hoping that everyone can be as comforted as I was when they need it most.
Sometimes moments of heartbreak can offer you an even greater moment of adoration for a friend.
It isn't always easy but being a bit broken in front of someone can help fix the problem. It's not always possible to put on your brave face.
Be Love.
And was also reminded of it today by a friend. I joked that I hadn't been inspired to write one, but really I think it is that I was too busy with other things OR I was just plain lazy.
I guess I've kind of forgotten that this blog is an outlet for things and I know I have plenty to share.
Just yesterday I was so moved by my friends/sisters coming out to support me. I joined "The Walk to End Alzheimer's" with my internship site, but also have a really close connection to the cause.
My grandfather was diagnosed with the disease at the age of 65 and died years ago after suffering with the disease for a decade. His wife, and my grandmother Bobo, also had signs of dementia and possible Alzheimer's. She died a week before school started this year. I didn't feel like sharing that news with everyone because I wasn't sure I could handle really talking about it. It's come up a few times and I've literally said "I can't go there" because I didn't want to get super upset.
But then my grandmothers heart shaped ring came in on Friday, resized and waiting for me. At first the excitement of having it was enough to distract me from the reminder of her being gone. A ring alone would have been a constant reminder but then with the added (personal) significance of the heart, and a band my mom gave me, I pretty much couldn't hold back the tears any longer. I cried on and off on the drive home and for the next bit listening to some songs that reminded me of her. I felt like I just needed to cry and shouldn't hold it in (I'm not a huge crier ) I stopped when my roommate Alex hugged me and squeezed me tight [something special in itself if it's coming from her ;) ]
This past weekend during the walk too, I found my eyes watering a couple times. Just thinking of my grandparents, the aging process, and the loss of loved ones.
I'm so blessed though that throughout this weekend of emotions and reflection I've had friends there for me throughout. Some have been there for years and years & some surprised me and that added even more to their comfort. Even the encouragement to continue blogging is something I appreciate.
So basically this is me bragging about my friends and hoping that everyone can be as comforted as I was when they need it most.
Sometimes moments of heartbreak can offer you an even greater moment of adoration for a friend.
It isn't always easy but being a bit broken in front of someone can help fix the problem. It's not always possible to put on your brave face.
Be Love.
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